Thoughts during in Sg

So you also think that i will make a lot of thinking heh?^^

Here goes the list of my thinking.....

1. Offer - the offer from the firm actually isnt bad despite no listed client but for now really money aint a problem, so i decided to go for experience. ( When i get there, when they say fresh graduate and new, I really have no idea how to negotiate any salary already. well im glad i have my ACCA as backup to support.^^)

2. Transport - Actually if i work in Sg, i really feel good though, good money good public transport, nothing more can deny right? so on transport part, i have chosen Sg for sure, as Malaysia need drive..

3. Family - This one quite a key point for me actually, I do know chosen Sg will not come back Malaysia for some time and that time i think that since my 2 brother already there, will they ever come back to Malaysia? shall I leave my mum only with my sister? Seriously some part of me saying is just fine, just go to Sg and work, mum sure ok about it. another part of me really concern about my mum, where all sons go to Sg and left one daughter...

4. HL - yeah this one shall use your name. As i know that you have waited long though. After my interview, i actually wanting to tell you straight away, but thinking that let me think about my offer first before telling you might be a better idea. So i got to think overall and at last poof! you called! Then i just have to tell you that time.^^ I do have some thoughts come about where yea, been telling you im coming to Sg working soon and now, i get the offer, but didn't accept it. Some part of me really felt sorry but another part come in and say think of overall , think of now, think of base, think of future. so at last it came about said that proper planning lead to success.

* when that night you send me the msg telling me to accept the job, i was really expected that message.^^ but still I try to make myself logical mind and try not to get anyone involve in my decision making. if not i really scared that i might push the responsibility to other people next time which i think is not appropriate.

because last time when i take my accounting in SPM, my brother said that it was easy, so i take, at last i duno what the heck im studying that time, really feel frustrated and blame my brother for saying it easy, the decision is up to me, and not him, so at last i only can blame myself for not concentrating in class.

5. Auditing - This might be a bit out of topic but when the interviewer keep saying of stressful life by working in audit, i was thinking am i really can cope about it? that time i really doubt myself, for the first time I felt my health is in stake when auditing. kinda crazy feeling? ya..

and when they ask is your friend stressful in working in audit? that one i really have no idea, even when i ask you, i really feel that you work in a good environment and good timing, well last time you do tell me when your first time in audit, but anyway, how about now? getting familiar?all become normal already?^^

6. Other option - Besides auditing, is there any other option to really pursue my career path? didn't really want my health put on at stake. Everyone might think that, still so young, why not give it a go? After all, if didn't try audit now, when im adult i wont go and try it anyway. So for experience and future sake, must I really go into auditing?

one of the saying, never try never know right?^^

some of my friend do suggest that want to become a member in ACCA actually just join any co that is associated with ACCA, something like schlumberger, oil & gas co..but anyway i still think about it first.^^

7. Choose working - If me, i would really like to work in balance working environment. Sometimes people get to arrange the health part too despite busy schedule. I think that can sort it out later..so live a healthy life. May all be well and happy. ^^

Thoughts...

After yesterday having a conversation with 2 of my friend..sudden realise something, in this world, can't there be good friends available like in europe?

I really have no idea what to chat afterwards, probably im too straightforward? well me is me, normally i would like to have a clear cut actually what happen, but not everyone will talk about it afterwards. So if can just tell me. I really dont hope between two people having a dilemma and guessing all around.

 if really dont speak out then really gonna have a hard to all round. So please speak out, i cant be guessing what you thinking all around. probably i might think too much, but just hope everything will be fine.



Hope everything will be alright.

May all be well and happy, sadhu sadhu sadhu.

Before I knew I'm already 23

Yesterday night, it has been quite a long night for me, because i can't fall asleep for the first time.

why is it so hard to fall asleep?

well i think it is a combination of many things, but anyhow i still manage to fall asleep at 2am..and now? wake up at 8am, i thought it was 12!..what a good eye sight i have right?^^

anyway, i realize many things within this few days, my resume , need to get reference, need some professional advice and controlling the emotion inside me.

Now only i realize im already 23, actually im not really prepared for it mentally. For me, really hope for gaming for whole day, not going actual world for obtaining experience really a dream for me, wanting to be carefree and just do my own stuff.

But still after i get my stuff when i ask for, then i started realize myself don't even get serious about job finding due to myself thinking of not prepared yet. I guess now is time to get matured up.

I'm glad i still have friends around.^^

Pris, now i know what you feel when you say going adulthood.^^

I guess is time to get serious on job findings. 

Cheers for all.

May all be well and happy. Sadhu sadhu sadhu...

Some updates about myself

Recently i went to tai chi course, after the course, i really feel that tai chi is now really getting better for me. Why do i say so?

now at least i can differentiate which tao lu is which tao lu, wont get mixed, but in competition, sometimes people just will mix it in order to beautify it, as competition consider as performance too, so if you play nice and well, you get those extra point.^^

But anyhow, my aim in tai chi is for health. so after one week following the china master, i really feel glad that he came to Malaysia, my left leg which suppose to have some pain on it gone! after one week of training.

Mmh, i wasnt really sure why, but his method on tai chi is far more better and relax. thats why he call it as yang shen tai chi. So next step is to make sure it will be useful is health.

After my course and competition, my thinking started flowing on the next day.

So now tai chi already have ways to achieve, competition already over, even though july and october still have, but still quite long way to go. It just suddenly pop to me when i open my setting goals book.

That book i use it quite some time ago, but didn't really follow well, at least i follow part of it.^^

So what i emo about? ( first time heard me getting emo huh?)

when writing those goals, well basically there are few areas which should be achieve, 

the list goes by,

studies, career, lifestyle, health, sports.

when go into career, i sudden think of, it has been quite a while since my graduation, i should have been working a while already if i didn't go to europe backpack.

So now im still waiting for Sg reply. mmh, not easy getting in Singapore to work heh...

should i still wait Sg or want start apply here already..

want join mid firm or small firm 

getting really confuse out of it.

at last, when i think of it, i decided to free myself of such thinking for a while.

that's why i went to 1Utama to find shoes, as my working shoes put at UK -_-, forget to bring back.

shoes pun x ada mau cakap go interview..

Then i think of my mood bit swing swing, i decided to go bookshop read some book to make sure my thinking back to positive. or maybe i should get some books provide tips for resume or CV or interview..

then i find that, motivational speaker book will be great at that time.

So after that, besides looking for job, i can also looking at others, F9 i learn diversification.

why not learn something which not job related, but also can do from home. then  i look for some how to earn money through investment book. quite good though, the feeling makes me feel good.

At last, i wasnt emo about the working part, but rather, other than working , what else i can do.

well, i can say do tai chi also not bad.^^ 

That night really sorry about it, i receive miss call of 17 times from you. but that time i see full bar, when i was in LG of 1Utama, didn't know there is no line there -_-...

Banyak maaf.and thanks for the calling.

That time i really scared my emotions really uncontrollable.^^
So i use gaming to make myself get into those emotions , after that come out of it by thinking why not improve myself rather than improve in game.

This week your courses also should be ending soon. All the best in everything. 

May all be well and happy.

A reply

Actually, when you give me a call that time, i also feel that you need someone just to talk to.  im not sure why, but i can sense it.

if that time you tell me earlier you are calling then i would go to lobby d lo, but that time you direct call without notice, my aunt and cousin also there planning to go to sleep already, so i just have to do so lo.

give me a message before you want to call lo.^^ but now, i no more sleep with my aunt, should be ok d la.^^

ooh? okok, kita kena take care ourself lo. myself too, i think plan will execute by next week if possible.

I also need to get into serious diet for myself for my own healthy future. Control control! ^^

Hope the best for you too of course. May you be well and happy. Cheers!^^

Lately feels

Today I do feel like writing blog, after so many days in langkawi, there is quite lots of feeling come along with me after I stay at here. Firstly, I do feel I'm really lucky I'm able to travel really a lot! More than what I think I can ! I really amaze on the incoming plan for me and how much I had travel during my last year. From my last year travel within 3 months, I went uk(London, Nottingham and Canterbury ), germany(Berlin) , Austria (Vienna) , Italy (Roma) , France (Paris) , norway ( fredrikstad and Oslo). This year in the early month, since January , on chinese new year, need back kelantan, then go Kedah after finish bai Nina grandma hse then my aunt hse At sungai petani. At last back KL. now in February, my Norway aunt ask me to follow go to langkawi , as my mum do tell that my aunt is the eldest and I should go and help my aunt if my aunt need any help, without hesitation I just book my flight together since I haven't really start working yet. Now? Here I am in langkawi. For one week. I'm glad my cousin is here, the room is cheaper by 1 /5 of the actual price of the hotel. But when I drop in langkawi there are other incident happen as well, my cousin is leaving the hotel soon. So the timing at langkawi is just right! Before she left langkawi. Then another plan coming, because my aunt ain't going back before 26 , so before her kuching trip on 16-23 , she decided to go Myanmar. That time me and my cousin also asked to follow, as Myanmar, need to be careful too but due to the visa thing, 5 days working day needed to make the visa , that's why the plan cancelled and now they going down south to Singapore as my aunt never went to Singapore before. So for the coming plan is malacca, Johor and Singapore! Between 10-15. So hope Ada chance meet up.^^ After that, is Kuching plan. Follow my uncle who is going since last year plan. Me and my cousin just follow after my aunt ask whether want join. As now my cousin is not working for 1 month, so she decided to go for a trip as well. This one I decided to follow as my cousin last time do ask why I did not tell early when planning for Europe trip, that time I wasn't really planning for the trip and I scared of going out alone too. But now, is much better. After my Europe trip, I find that when travelling, just need to follow the flow of travelling, well one is to enjoy the scenery, second is to enjoy the culture or people there. Whenever there is a chance to travel, just travel even though sometimes i can say I'm a bit tired of travelling, well you can say this say Ji really don't know how to appreciate this travelling but I just tell the truth.^^ I like those long days travel in one place and just chill out at that place rather than rushing around many places in one go. In this few days, I just feel that I would like to just relax on the beach and read some book or have a rest there. Sounds familiar for western? Yeah, I got the feel when I sitting on a coffee shop in Paris , just sit down there, relax read book, enjoy coffee or hot chocolate,see the environment, feel the happening around. Isn't it nice if I can do that? Well for now I'm following my aunt , so I can't really do anything that I really want. So for now, just follow. When in travel sometimes a feeling just pop up, I feel like I'm kinda a leecher, this is due to my travelling most are not I paid when I went there, I only pay for flight ticket for langkawi, food and accomodation and travel is paid by my aunt uncle and cousin. I feel bad about it. After that, my cousin tell me, no matter how good other people are, (people not within your family) our family is the ost important. When she say this out, my leeching feel all gone! I feel that I should feel grateful on what I get now and repay them later. Not in terms of money, but other as well. With this positive feeling, I think this is the right feeling should be use and feel. So no matter how, please appreciate your family. - this part for reply for your blog that I read. friends, partly I agree with you. As for me, when I emo or I'm sad, I don't really speak out to anyone, as I feel that might occur from my own rather than someone else. I'm not sure why, but I feel that even for me, I always assess myself all the time if something wrong occur. Is it same like you?^^ only when I really can't solve it then I try reach out wider community. Stay positive I know it ain't easy too. Even me, always try to think positive too. Everyone have emotions la, just that how well they controlling their emotions ^^ Feeling better sure I will say good^^. As if feel better mean much better de feelings come along. Start feeling good about chatting? ^^ great! Good night r, u can tell your mum also de, then you get more good night^^ Have a good night for me as well tonight, may all the good feelings always stays with u, may all be well and happy, may myself be positive too, rather than thinking on the negative side.^^ cheers!

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well i should have post a new topic yesterday but i didn't manage to post one. Now let me post something up.^^

Reply for your post :

whao ! so that's the hard way to learn up, but it seems you learn a lot by doing things alone. Cheers for you.

Ooh? emoing for whole day thinking about life. mmh, that's a good one, i guess that's how your resolution came about.^^ to make sure your path is on the correct way and going to what you aiming for.

My social skills would be same as yours i guess. from the way you see me chatting with you through phone you already know .^^ so i think if chat more with you more, my phone chatting skill sure improve d..haha

I did not really expect you wait me want lo.  Its time to end? end chatting with me r? 2 sentence of word can make you think till like that -_-

That time i really was wondering what happen to you lo..thats why tried to call you to ensure is ok there.
your most welcome. just dont forget that friends will be there when you need in help.

( This is the lesson i learn in backpacking, when i travel europe alone - i guess you know the story already , the need of togetherness ) * if dont know the story then tell me. Repeating will be in progress.^^

Thanks. will do so.

Lately, I havent really been thinking about future much as CNY comes, going out with my mum, friends and family, but still future is what awaits me that need my doings now. So i need to rush up my stuff.

I will update new post if i get anymore news about me to say about.^^ For now im still compiling my news.^^ Hope you dont mind of this small post.

you must be wondering how im awake at this early time. yesterday i think the sze chuan dish too spicy..late night come and have a big business inside toilet. fuh..

At last, able to write it up before you wake up. ^^