Negative emotions

kinda shock of this title heh..

but yeah, this is what SJ also have it..despite always positive..

Lately I have figured out something..

1. last time there is an aunt family which im not sure why, but everytime when heard about her , i have a negative emotions towards it which i think is wrong of course. no doubt , that feeling just came everytime i heard it.

one thing that always bother me is when my mum and my aunt went out, but when come back, my aunt didnt really send my mum home, * is everytime happen like that though. ( even though they are sisters and our house is so near, i try to walk from my hse to her hse, um 15 minutes? yeah..or less than that.

Anyway, last few days, after i get together with my aunt family with me alone, suddenly i feel, is quite alright with them...

I guess is just my thinking that run around always go to negative side. and now i do feel that im sorry for having those negative emotions...

negative emotions lead to negative action right? ^^..thats what i believe..if control well, everything will be alright.

So thanks to the Wesak day floating parade, make me get the chance for having good thoughts and positiveness is back..


2. One more is that when i get to temple, when i reach on Wesak eve with my mum and sister, do you know what my thinking is? why need to go?

this is the first time i wondering im thinking that. gosh..i feel im really out of league whereby my thinking is really need some fine tune. I feel that thinking was just way wrong...

So my thinking shall be, go place and follow it, enjoy it with an honest heart, feel the joy of enjoying it, chances of getting together by everyone is not always, fill it with happiness and good thoughts whenever you cherish it.

at last my thoughts goes im glad i came with my mum and sister, sharing merits to everyone, and pray that everyone is good and happy. Cherish the moment together. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.


3. Praying for remembrance for my dad.

earlier, as you say , i have the same thoughts, and one more of my thoughts is that is from my uncle which teach that if one person still alive, please treat them with respect.
 if im working, i wont need to go back to Kelantan just to pray.
but actually after pray, i feel glad that I went back and pray.

The feeling of remembrance of my dad really difference, everyday pass by, did i ever think of my dad? hardly i guess, maybe because when my dad become angel that time im still very young. The only thing that remind me of my dad is tai chi but whenever i play tai chi,  i didnt really remind myself how my dad play it, but rather how i improve myself to the next level and maintain health benefit which suppose to be.
So going back to kelantan and pray for the remembrance really make me remind of my dad, and looking at the young photo of me and my family remind me of I have such a good family and i shall cherish it together with them the moment we had.

not everyone have the chance, seriously, not every year i will go back and pray. im glad that this year i went back because if not im not sure when else can get back and pray for the day which is near Wesak day.

when i go back, i realise the importance of it, the moment at home, the feel in kelantan house, the work need to be done in order to pray.

really feel glad i went back...


4.Another thing happen to me is that, mmh..tell the truth, PWC sudah reject my application, but anyway i will redo my resume and give another go despite that.

Now everytime my thinking when open email on application, wa so scared kena reject..i guess that's application experience?^^...

Hope now and then everything is alright...already send out to KPMG and EY...

after that is cross finger everything will be fine...Hope my mentality able to cope with high amount of stress....

Stress? that word just came about if you think you are stress right?^^...if you think you are stress then you are stress...think no stress then no stress lo....everything will be alright..cheers.

May my aunt and her family be well and happy....
May all be well and happy..sadhu sadhu sadhu