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bukan saya x mau post, quite happening recently..

well, lets see....
0. memang glad u like the pen, professional look boh?haha..^^ ada chance then jangan lupa guna..


1. I manage to get in EY, met a lot of people and yesterday, is my first month salary!..^^..so mestila makan makan kan? but x de la, just normal je...HL naik gaji wo, Iphone Iphone!..^^

2. my aunt n uncle from Paris mari, Aunt from Norway mari, uncle and aunt from London mari..been staying in my house for a week before they depart to Myanmar next tuesday..i guess gotta wake up early to send them for their early flight at 5am =+=...luckily next week is training..should be able to send them ba...
( For training, normally 8.30am to 5.30pm)

so this week is fully accompany them go out go in, fetch here , send there...memang balik full time driver..without paid..ahh...

3. Expenses - wa recently really memang kou li kou li, daily parking average RM 10, makan minimum RM5..feel like bringing fruits and roti pergi work d ....expenses calculating...1 month,i expect minimum RM 400 - 600, if include petrol and car maintenance..

4. Studies - masuk big 4, everyone pursuing professional cert, feel like i also want to pursue more....they got sponsor sumore, thinking what should i pursue..mmh, Master...language - lets say macam Japanese, Korean, German, Spanish, French?...i think Japanese might b priority...anime too much d, cannot wait subtitle..

* Konan cosplay ada pakai steel plate de meh on forehead?..y urs pakai de?

5. Is time to make up financial plan on how much to save, expense...

6. Recently my car window kena broke, so my mum thinking of buying a parking lot..it cost 24k ..fuh, expensive weh..still in planning...wa like that monthly i habis d...so many expenses..lol..

7. Last  but not least, most important,  health - went do check up, the nurse was shock when first time tengok my BP, 150/110..lucky 2nd time she check is 135/85, fuh...

lately makan banyak la, my aunt n uncle all cannot finish food i kena habiskan..aih, bukan easy mau keep memang...sudah naik semula 77 - 78..wa sweat...

kena do more workout or plan something up to execute d, if not habis me..=+=



how good if not working, those thing doesnt come to me..lol...jkjk..

work d got more things to aim d..

now belum peak lagi ....when peak..gotta more jia you d!..


all the best in everything, sadhu sadhu sadhu^^

Goal

Today i came about new thoughts about it - 2 months.

Weight : 70kg ..but hl say 60..so need strive 60 liao !^^


Feel like updating my daily living in order to keep track.

9th May :

morning : Oats + walnut + raisin

Lunch : 2 bread + apple + grape

Dinner : 2 bread..

Goal achieve for today.


* Pantang : No ice cold drink, no Spicy food, No suan food...

10th may


morning : Oats + walnut + raisin

Lunch :  one roti canai + 2 banana

Dinner : 2 orange + 1 apple + some grape.

Negative emotions

kinda shock of this title heh..

but yeah, this is what SJ also have it..despite always positive..

Lately I have figured out something..

1. last time there is an aunt family which im not sure why, but everytime when heard about her , i have a negative emotions towards it which i think is wrong of course. no doubt , that feeling just came everytime i heard it.

one thing that always bother me is when my mum and my aunt went out, but when come back, my aunt didnt really send my mum home, * is everytime happen like that though. ( even though they are sisters and our house is so near, i try to walk from my hse to her hse, um 15 minutes? yeah..or less than that.

Anyway, last few days, after i get together with my aunt family with me alone, suddenly i feel, is quite alright with them...

I guess is just my thinking that run around always go to negative side. and now i do feel that im sorry for having those negative emotions...

negative emotions lead to negative action right? ^^..thats what i believe..if control well, everything will be alright.

So thanks to the Wesak day floating parade, make me get the chance for having good thoughts and positiveness is back..


2. One more is that when i get to temple, when i reach on Wesak eve with my mum and sister, do you know what my thinking is? why need to go?

this is the first time i wondering im thinking that. gosh..i feel im really out of league whereby my thinking is really need some fine tune. I feel that thinking was just way wrong...

So my thinking shall be, go place and follow it, enjoy it with an honest heart, feel the joy of enjoying it, chances of getting together by everyone is not always, fill it with happiness and good thoughts whenever you cherish it.

at last my thoughts goes im glad i came with my mum and sister, sharing merits to everyone, and pray that everyone is good and happy. Cherish the moment together. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu.


3. Praying for remembrance for my dad.

earlier, as you say , i have the same thoughts, and one more of my thoughts is that is from my uncle which teach that if one person still alive, please treat them with respect.
 if im working, i wont need to go back to Kelantan just to pray.
but actually after pray, i feel glad that I went back and pray.

The feeling of remembrance of my dad really difference, everyday pass by, did i ever think of my dad? hardly i guess, maybe because when my dad become angel that time im still very young. The only thing that remind me of my dad is tai chi but whenever i play tai chi,  i didnt really remind myself how my dad play it, but rather how i improve myself to the next level and maintain health benefit which suppose to be.
So going back to kelantan and pray for the remembrance really make me remind of my dad, and looking at the young photo of me and my family remind me of I have such a good family and i shall cherish it together with them the moment we had.

not everyone have the chance, seriously, not every year i will go back and pray. im glad that this year i went back because if not im not sure when else can get back and pray for the day which is near Wesak day.

when i go back, i realise the importance of it, the moment at home, the feel in kelantan house, the work need to be done in order to pray.

really feel glad i went back...


4.Another thing happen to me is that, mmh..tell the truth, PWC sudah reject my application, but anyway i will redo my resume and give another go despite that.

Now everytime my thinking when open email on application, wa so scared kena reject..i guess that's application experience?^^...

Hope now and then everything is alright...already send out to KPMG and EY...

after that is cross finger everything will be fine...Hope my mentality able to cope with high amount of stress....

Stress? that word just came about if you think you are stress right?^^...if you think you are stress then you are stress...think no stress then no stress lo....everything will be alright..cheers.

May my aunt and her family be well and happy....
May all be well and happy..sadhu sadhu sadhu

Thoughts during in Sg

So you also think that i will make a lot of thinking heh?^^

Here goes the list of my thinking.....

1. Offer - the offer from the firm actually isnt bad despite no listed client but for now really money aint a problem, so i decided to go for experience. ( When i get there, when they say fresh graduate and new, I really have no idea how to negotiate any salary already. well im glad i have my ACCA as backup to support.^^)

2. Transport - Actually if i work in Sg, i really feel good though, good money good public transport, nothing more can deny right? so on transport part, i have chosen Sg for sure, as Malaysia need drive..

3. Family - This one quite a key point for me actually, I do know chosen Sg will not come back Malaysia for some time and that time i think that since my 2 brother already there, will they ever come back to Malaysia? shall I leave my mum only with my sister? Seriously some part of me saying is just fine, just go to Sg and work, mum sure ok about it. another part of me really concern about my mum, where all sons go to Sg and left one daughter...

4. HL - yeah this one shall use your name. As i know that you have waited long though. After my interview, i actually wanting to tell you straight away, but thinking that let me think about my offer first before telling you might be a better idea. So i got to think overall and at last poof! you called! Then i just have to tell you that time.^^ I do have some thoughts come about where yea, been telling you im coming to Sg working soon and now, i get the offer, but didn't accept it. Some part of me really felt sorry but another part come in and say think of overall , think of now, think of base, think of future. so at last it came about said that proper planning lead to success.

* when that night you send me the msg telling me to accept the job, i was really expected that message.^^ but still I try to make myself logical mind and try not to get anyone involve in my decision making. if not i really scared that i might push the responsibility to other people next time which i think is not appropriate.

because last time when i take my accounting in SPM, my brother said that it was easy, so i take, at last i duno what the heck im studying that time, really feel frustrated and blame my brother for saying it easy, the decision is up to me, and not him, so at last i only can blame myself for not concentrating in class.

5. Auditing - This might be a bit out of topic but when the interviewer keep saying of stressful life by working in audit, i was thinking am i really can cope about it? that time i really doubt myself, for the first time I felt my health is in stake when auditing. kinda crazy feeling? ya..

and when they ask is your friend stressful in working in audit? that one i really have no idea, even when i ask you, i really feel that you work in a good environment and good timing, well last time you do tell me when your first time in audit, but anyway, how about now? getting familiar?all become normal already?^^

6. Other option - Besides auditing, is there any other option to really pursue my career path? didn't really want my health put on at stake. Everyone might think that, still so young, why not give it a go? After all, if didn't try audit now, when im adult i wont go and try it anyway. So for experience and future sake, must I really go into auditing?

one of the saying, never try never know right?^^

some of my friend do suggest that want to become a member in ACCA actually just join any co that is associated with ACCA, something like schlumberger, oil & gas co..but anyway i still think about it first.^^

7. Choose working - If me, i would really like to work in balance working environment. Sometimes people get to arrange the health part too despite busy schedule. I think that can sort it out later..so live a healthy life. May all be well and happy. ^^

Thoughts...

After yesterday having a conversation with 2 of my friend..sudden realise something, in this world, can't there be good friends available like in europe?

I really have no idea what to chat afterwards, probably im too straightforward? well me is me, normally i would like to have a clear cut actually what happen, but not everyone will talk about it afterwards. So if can just tell me. I really dont hope between two people having a dilemma and guessing all around.

 if really dont speak out then really gonna have a hard to all round. So please speak out, i cant be guessing what you thinking all around. probably i might think too much, but just hope everything will be fine.



Hope everything will be alright.

May all be well and happy, sadhu sadhu sadhu.

Before I knew I'm already 23

Yesterday night, it has been quite a long night for me, because i can't fall asleep for the first time.

why is it so hard to fall asleep?

well i think it is a combination of many things, but anyhow i still manage to fall asleep at 2am..and now? wake up at 8am, i thought it was 12!..what a good eye sight i have right?^^

anyway, i realize many things within this few days, my resume , need to get reference, need some professional advice and controlling the emotion inside me.

Now only i realize im already 23, actually im not really prepared for it mentally. For me, really hope for gaming for whole day, not going actual world for obtaining experience really a dream for me, wanting to be carefree and just do my own stuff.

But still after i get my stuff when i ask for, then i started realize myself don't even get serious about job finding due to myself thinking of not prepared yet. I guess now is time to get matured up.

I'm glad i still have friends around.^^

Pris, now i know what you feel when you say going adulthood.^^

I guess is time to get serious on job findings. 

Cheers for all.

May all be well and happy. Sadhu sadhu sadhu...

Some updates about myself

Recently i went to tai chi course, after the course, i really feel that tai chi is now really getting better for me. Why do i say so?

now at least i can differentiate which tao lu is which tao lu, wont get mixed, but in competition, sometimes people just will mix it in order to beautify it, as competition consider as performance too, so if you play nice and well, you get those extra point.^^

But anyhow, my aim in tai chi is for health. so after one week following the china master, i really feel glad that he came to Malaysia, my left leg which suppose to have some pain on it gone! after one week of training.

Mmh, i wasnt really sure why, but his method on tai chi is far more better and relax. thats why he call it as yang shen tai chi. So next step is to make sure it will be useful is health.

After my course and competition, my thinking started flowing on the next day.

So now tai chi already have ways to achieve, competition already over, even though july and october still have, but still quite long way to go. It just suddenly pop to me when i open my setting goals book.

That book i use it quite some time ago, but didn't really follow well, at least i follow part of it.^^

So what i emo about? ( first time heard me getting emo huh?)

when writing those goals, well basically there are few areas which should be achieve, 

the list goes by,

studies, career, lifestyle, health, sports.

when go into career, i sudden think of, it has been quite a while since my graduation, i should have been working a while already if i didn't go to europe backpack.

So now im still waiting for Sg reply. mmh, not easy getting in Singapore to work heh...

should i still wait Sg or want start apply here already..

want join mid firm or small firm 

getting really confuse out of it.

at last, when i think of it, i decided to free myself of such thinking for a while.

that's why i went to 1Utama to find shoes, as my working shoes put at UK -_-, forget to bring back.

shoes pun x ada mau cakap go interview..

Then i think of my mood bit swing swing, i decided to go bookshop read some book to make sure my thinking back to positive. or maybe i should get some books provide tips for resume or CV or interview..

then i find that, motivational speaker book will be great at that time.

So after that, besides looking for job, i can also looking at others, F9 i learn diversification.

why not learn something which not job related, but also can do from home. then  i look for some how to earn money through investment book. quite good though, the feeling makes me feel good.

At last, i wasnt emo about the working part, but rather, other than working , what else i can do.

well, i can say do tai chi also not bad.^^ 

That night really sorry about it, i receive miss call of 17 times from you. but that time i see full bar, when i was in LG of 1Utama, didn't know there is no line there -_-...

Banyak maaf.and thanks for the calling.

That time i really scared my emotions really uncontrollable.^^
So i use gaming to make myself get into those emotions , after that come out of it by thinking why not improve myself rather than improve in game.

This week your courses also should be ending soon. All the best in everything. 

May all be well and happy.